Existence is beautiful. A blog about inspiration, love & compassion, healthy living and appreciating life's fine moments. A personal blog I sink and float to. Oh and some music, humour and awesomeness of course.
Mahmoud was my driver during my time in Shiraz. Perhaps the most colorful man I’ve ever met. He speaks English in simple phrases, which always involve his name, such as “Mahmoud happy” or “Mahmoud love.” Often he just says “Mahmoud,” then points at me, and places his hands over his heart.
He is the most hospitable man I’ve ever met. If I needed to cross the street, Mahmoud became a crossing guard. He would not let me open my own car door, or my own bottle of water. At one time or another, it seemed that he offered to give me everything he owned. I once made the mistake of accepting his offer of cologne, then got sprayed eight times.
My fondest memory of Mahmoud was yesterday when we laid down to rest in a garden. Mahmoud had carefully prepared two beds using mats and blankets. I couldn’t fall asleep, so I decided to let Mahmoud rest, and went for a short walk by the river. When I looked back, Mahmoud had woken up, folded up both the beds, and was running to accompany me.
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It’s been long since my last post - too long. 3 months ago today I posted about my great escape becoming a reality. FLASH 3 months later and I am one week away from that reality. In one week I move to the other side of the planet, to a tropical paradise - Palau. For what feels like a long time coming, here I sit in my room in my last days. No amount of waiting or preparation can truly ready me for this experience, but I feel ready to take on the unknown, or at least as ready as I can be.
Life in the last few months has been unlike anything I have ever experienced. I feel I have embraced freedom for the first time. A child-like playfulness with a respect for the world around me. Breaking boundaries and being true to myself - flourishing. Not only does it feel great, but it is ever-growing and I can’t help but try to spread the love.
One of the most profound realizations I have taken in from this recent experience is that this freedom, attitude and perspective came to exist as a result of me knowing I have a deadline in this part of my life and that I have to make the best of my remaining time. The profound part is; nothing has actually changed. Sure there have been minor changes in my lifestyle, but it is my mindset, how I use my time, how I take in the moment, how I appreciate all the love around me and how I can spread love to all those surrounding. It - this knowing - was always (t)here - this better life. I took it for granted because I was waiting for it to change, with no end in sight. This was denial, a lack of self-respect. We are worth every second of happiness, every last ounce of love. It is and was always there. It’s not just acknowledging this concept but it is believing that we are worth our best at every moment of our life - for that is what defines our ‘living’ experience. The good and bad moments define us, they are precious and should be interpreted as equal.
We are worthy, I am worthy, you are worthy. Don’t just say it - know it as the most vital aspect of your character. Embrace all that you are and don’t be afraid to be yourself, to tell the truth in a tough situation. Be honest and be vulnerable.
We may feel naked and scared of what others may think of us being us, but h8ers gunn h8. The ones that stick by when you are left exposed are the one’s that get to see you for the good and bad, but importantly - you in your essence. This is how we truly connect with one-another. Don’t be afraid of failure, be afraid of not giving it your all, living with a stack of “what if”s.
Go out there and do something fun and wild, let loose. Do it with people around. Concentrate on your fun, feed off the potential energy of those around. I assure you that people’s day will be made brighter.
~ Peace & Love
In a room, surrounded by friends - a few musicians who have made a band.
Despite the few flops here and there, the off-notes and the disagreements, there is just a such a great sense of togetherness and warmth that tends to underlie in these groups. Knowing the people personally and seeing their music bring them together in such a positive manner makes it clear the importance and the strength in unity. I can see the struggles when everyone has something slightly different in mind. In the end, what makes or breaks a good band is how the members of the group compliment each other, or how they clash. Compassion and an open mind can not only open doors for the members, but make it that much easier for people on the outside to feel open to taking in the message of the group.
I am sitting here, listening, waiting, and psychoanalyzing patiently. Every comment and every tone. I feel silly, but I feel good, despite the subtle passive-aggressive comments being thrown around.
For the few people that follow me, or glance over my blog from time to time will be the very few to know that I will no longer be living in this part of the world for some time. As I have discussed such big events in my life with so very few, I find my blog to be a satisfying output.
I have a life to explore on the other side of this planet and as I sit alone in my room, I take in the last of what I’ll experience in this chapter of my life.
I have never felt so eager, vulnerable, alone and liberated in my life. This will make little sense to the few reading, and it will remain that way until I have my 100% closure. This blog will never cease to exist throughout my experiences.
Many may think I am crazy and possibly delusional upon reading this, but this is not the case. Once-in-a-lifetime opportunities are few and far between. I have never felt more ready to take this upon, with every fibre of my being.
The time is drawing near, the fire is burning inside, like never before. My life as I know it has transformed into a vast, mysterious entity. As we only truely know reality through our individual perception, my reality has altered, taken new form. I feel my mind has shifted to another plane - I am overwhelmed, naked, pure and exposed.
My life-force is unlike ever before, for all has pieced together with such grace and precision.
You have made it happen,
Now, courageously take the plunge.
Trust your instinct, pursue with ALL that you’ve got
Drive your life and experience what it means to LIVE.
Let your spirit soar.
from deep within.
for some time now i’ve wanted to escape from everything. go out on my own. basic essentials. alone. i love my life, don’t get me wrong, but i want to be by myself. to disappear completely. i’ve wanted to since i could remember. this is my deepest desire.
In these times i ask myself; why aren’t you out there? why aren’t you there on your own?
I need to be on my own,
I will be on my own.
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Picked up a sweet new portable recorder recently. I was improvising and just feeling out different sounds to different built-in FX on the recorder. I decided to record it just in case any thing of quality was made. Not a bad impulse.
I used distortion and echo and had it feed to my headphones live as I was playing.
I hope to release a lot more material soon of other works as music is a large portion of my expression. I would definitely love to share with whoever would be a willing listener.
Twas a bit too big to be a lap dog.. but I
miss him all the time. He was harmless, sweet, simple and a bit of an attention hog. He was easy to love to the utmost extent.
I’m grateful to be alive. A life in which I can experience such extraordinary feelings that come with loving and being loved. Though moments pass and all things come to an end, the love we keep close in our hearts keep us warm, strong and persistent.
Love more, and love with all that you’ve got.